Even a Million Scars Doesn't Change Whose You Are

Written By @3130beloved

I guess if I’m talking about how someone else’s identity is rooted in Christ regardless of their temptations or struggles this Friday on my IG live, I can start with myself first by sharing how I once let abortion define me and my identity. Then Jesus transformed everything I knew about life while ushering in an army of people to link arms & walk towards Him with. Walking towards Him meant walking away from lies, shame and condemnation.

  “Even a million scars doesn’t change who’s you are— you’re worthy. You’re beautifully broken”, was the song sung after this video played at @clarishealth annual gala last year. I stood live in front of 700+ people as another beautifully broken human being in need of God’s grace. Although I’ve been set free from the bondage of my abortion, I also realized that night that I’d forgotten the power that comes with sharing your testimony as my own friends for YEARS came up to me afterwards confessing that they too have had an abortion! Despite me sharing my abortion story over and over again, you just never know when the Lord will turn on that light revealing what needs to be healed, amen?

I can’t thank #ClarisHealth enough for how they helped me pursue true healing. I can think of no better way to give back to their team than by sharing with YOU all today that they just opened up a brand new clinic in the city of Lynwood!! They’re bringing all medical, counseling & support services needed as the city of Lynwood demonstrates high need in many key indicators of health such as: 

  • The highest rates of infant and maternal mortality in LA county

  • The highest teen birth rate in LA county

  • The highest % of women who do not receive prenatal care in their 1st trimester

  • The highest % of adults with difficulty accessing healthcare, and more.

SO!!! They’re raising $20,000 in the next 48 hours + need YOUR help + every amount of support will make a difference!! Will you GIVE TODAY!?!🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼 Visit clarishealth.org/lynwood to make an impact today!

“We are not sharing our story for ourselves, but to help others understand & find Christ; to point others to the amazing gospel of grace which has changed our lives, & which we know can change theirs, too”
— Tim Keller
@3130beloved

I’ve always hated these, “Bio” or “About me” sections— so awkward.

But… after living 25 years lost in my agnostic world chasing my own fame, glory, comfort and will I was brought to my end. After the death of my mom, ending the most manipulative & emotionally abusive relationship, a lifestyle of drug addiction, 2 abortions, and finding myself empty while standing in the middle of what the world says is “bliss”… I reached the end of myself and the beginning of seeing Jesus’ light beaming down on me.

I met His Holy Spirit for the first time at a Halloween rave called, “Day of the Dead.” To this day, I still think this is one of the darkest places to be on our planet. I raved and popped pills to numb my pain, to avoid my fears and to suppress my sadness. I was in the middle of bobbing my head and raising my arms to the electro house music blasting in my ears when images of skeletons came on the TV monitors and the weak spirit within me has a knee-jerk reaction to put my arms down. “Whoa! I don’t worship that!”, I thought. “Wait, what do I know about worship?” Now looking back, there God was! The beginning of my site for Him.

A year later, I followed my brother (his good looking friend) to church (@realityLA). I don’t remember the sermon but I heard God for the first time when worship began singing, “Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders. Let me walk upon the waters wherever you would call me.”

I LOST my mind.

It was an overwhelming & LAVISHINGGG upon me of, "Hi precious girl. I see you. I know you. I’ve been here. I know your pain. I know your loss. I know you are lost. I know you’re angry, specifically with me because you lost your mom and you think your life is unredeemable but my beloved, I’ve been coming after you because you are mine.” I cried the hardest I’d ever cried in my life because my entire being just knew… This. Is. God. This. Is. The. Master. Of. The. Universe— and He wants me? Broken, selfish, ugly me?

I soon followed this good looking friend of my brothers to a community group. There is where I met the love of God through His people as they accepted me, fed me, welcomed me, and took me in as family despite my lifestyle that rebelled against everything they believed. One year later, I said, “Fine. I’ll follow until you fail just like everything else has.” Well… He hasn’t failed nor broken any promise yet. ;) My choice to accept Jesus as my Lord, savior and new identity has brought me more freedom than I could have ever fathomed. I didn’t know what I was living for or aiming at but God truly lit up every shadow, broke down every wall, shattered every lie and came after me.

Salvation belongs to the Lord.

As the world kicks and screams trying to shout their way to justice, peace and unity on their own terms right now, may the roots of our identity in Christ grow deeper each day together as one body; as one family.

“Blessed is the man who walks not in the counsel of the wicked,
nor stands in the way of sinners, nor sits in the seat of scoffers;

but his delight is in the law of the Lord,
and on his law he meditates day and night.

He is like a tree planted by streams of water
that yields its fruit in its season, and its leaf does not wither.
In all that he does, he prospers.

The wicked are not so,
but are like chaff that the wind drives away.

Therefore the wicked will not stand in the judgment,
nor sinners in the congregation of the righteous;
for the Lord knows the way of the righteous,
but the way of the wicked will perish.”

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